Buddy

by Justin Brower

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about

It takes a while to realize that absolutely and unapologetically not giving a shit is pretty much your only option in life.

This is a collection of songs that I've written over the past few years. They've been lingering for a while and so i've decided to release them. A lot of these are personal and difficult to share. I hope you can get as much out of listening them as I have recording them.

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released April 29, 2015

All songs were written, recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by myself, with the following exceptions-

Thanks to Harley Davidson for help producing Drums on almost every track, and for driving back from Rochester, fucking up his car and nearly getting fired. I love you man.

Thanks to Eric Foreman for letting me borrow his bass when recording the album.

Thanks to all of my friends and family for their love and support over the past few years.


For harley, stephanie, jimmy and my dad.

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Track Name: Night Driving
i think i know why you left
there's nothing left for you here
you're a burden you're a messed up realization of a fear
you can't escape from
you've gone miles you've got
miles left to go

i think you might have met your match
i think you found the water's cold
i think I finally understand the sweat on your cold shaky hands
you are so nervous
so vulrenable

and you've been lying through your teeth
you're not okay
you never were, and you're scared.

you're not okay, you never were and you're scared.
Track Name: Oak
i like to laugh a lot
to soothe the dull aching
my brain is overloaded
and my body's shaking

there's a cold sweat on my neck
and i'm breathing hard now
i close my eyes and pray
but I can't remember how

i beg you to take me back
i lower my head
fall to my knees
i am pleading
that you'll forgive me
but you never answer
you don't listen anymore

I like to sleep alot
to patch up the ceiling
of the roof of the house
my mind'd be dead without

but it's more of a makeshift lean to
that keeps the rain out
and my brain from getting wet
all burned with regret

i begged you to forgive me
for not being there the night that you died

i was 15 and scared I couldn't handle it
I honestly tried

i would hide in my room just to make
sure that you weren't there

oh I begged you to forgive me
for ignoring your call to upstairs

it was late and i was scared and there were people everywhere
i miss you
it was late and i was scared and there were people everywhere
and i miss you

but i'm full of excuses
oh i'm full of excuses
i'm full of excuses
'cause i've had years

oh i'm full of excuses
i'm full of excuses
i'm full of excuses
'cause I've had years

..
Track Name: Self Trickery
to try to fall asleep
i've gotta remind myself to breathe
you're not next to me
you're not next to me anymore

to try to fall asleep
i've gotta remind myself to breathe
you're not here with me
you're not here with me anymore

this songs for you
just know that i needed it too
i wrote each word thinking about you
but thought quicker than my my mouth
could let out words
and so i may have missed a few

i tried my best
scribbled them down
but what was left
would let you down
i'd let you down

this songs for you
and all the times that you came through
and every night you calmed me down
when all i had was thrown around
and i was scared
you helped me fight off all my demons
you were the glue that helped maintain the parts
of me that I could save,
oh you saved me

every night i spend alone
is another night of sleeping with my hand next to my phone
i tried my best to let you know
you were the best thing in my life
and when I close my eyes
you're all i see
you're all that's inside
you're all i can find

but this songs for you
and all the times that i lost sleep
just laying staring at the ceiling
wondering if I’d feel this feeling
now i’m weak
and i’ve lost a bet or two
i’ve had a drink and now i’m looking at my phone
and wishing I were home you

every night i spend alone
is another night of sleeping with my hand next to my phone
i tried my best to let you know
you were the best thing in my life
and when I close my eyes
you're all i see
you're all that's inside
you're all i can find

to try to fall asleep I
remind myself to breath
'cause you're not here with me no more
you're never here with me anymore

...

you're gone
Track Name: Crossroads (acoustic)
i've got a couple of stories that i like to tell
the time my world fell apart
a time I wasn't well

I'm headed straight for the edge
i walked a thin line
the choice was clear like day and fucking night

thrown to the floor
i pulled myself up

the night took control of my thought
and cornered me into the dark
and all i knew was thrown aside for one last time

and now that the war has begun
won't stop till the battle is won
tonight i sit at a crossroads

and though i've always felt
the answer would find me
i don't know which way to go
or whom i can trust
but no matter what

i know the pain's still there
no matter which way i turn
there are lessons
to be learned

pushed to the ground
i pulled myself up

the night took control of my thoughts
and cornered me into the dark
and all i knew was thrown aside for one last time

and now that the war has begun
won't stop till the battle is won
tonight i sit at a crossroads

no matter what
i'll be there
i'll be there
don't forget that no matter what
i'll be there
i'll be there
don't forget

no matter what
i'll be there
i'll be there
don't forget that no matter when
it doesn't matter when

the night
took control of my thoughts
and cornered me into the dark
and all i knew was thrown aside for one last time

and now that the war has begun
won't stop till the battle is won
tonight i sit at a crossroads
Track Name: Oak (acoustic)
i like to laugh a lot
to soothe the dull aching
my brain is overloaded
and my body's shaking

there's a cold sweat on my neck
and i'm breathing hard now
i close my eyes and pray
but I can't remember how

i beg you to take me back
i lower my head
fall to my knees
i am pleading
that you'll forgive me
but you never answer
you don't listen anymore

I like to sleep alot
to patch up the ceiling
of the roof of the house
my mind'd be dead without

but it's more of a makeshift lean to
that keeps the rain out
and my brain from getting wet
all burned with regret

i begged you to forgive me
for not being there the night that you died

i was 15 and scared I couldn't handle it
I honestly tried

i would hide in my room just to make
sure that you weren't there

oh I begged you to forgive me
for ignoring your call to upstairs

it was late and i was scared and there were people everywhere
i miss you
it was late and i was scared and there were people everywhere
and i miss you

but i'm full of excuses
oh i'm full of excuses
i'm full of excuses
'cause i've had years

oh i'm full of excuses
i'm full of excuses
i'm full of excuses
'cause I've had years

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